I’ve been catching up in so many ways. Reconnecting with myself, and the world outside the bubble that I live in as a new mom again. Reconnecting with myself as a writer, I find myself questioning how I write. Not in a bad way, not in a can I do this kind of way, but in a how do I do this kind of way.
Most of you know that I write loosely, from the subconscious, without thought to how it is done, only contemplating once I have a draft done, but once in a while I find myself wondering how the whole process works.
Part of the connection to myself as a writer comes from connecting to the rest of you and the world. In her post Linda wonders how writers know what the current trend is, and Ann talks about how reading and studying (and being a quick writer!) are part of this answer. For me to be a writer, I need to read, watch tv, see the latest films, and listen to music. I need to see how people move and talk, how they respond to each other. I need to listen to words of the latest releases on the radio. I need to observe the world. Touching base in this way causes your ideas to morph into my ideas.
I have begun reading from all genres, ones I never even considered, just to see how they are done. And I have enjoyed it more than I ever thought I would. (chic lit a prime example for me). I had to release my prejudices, and just read, without judgment. I have been shocked to learn how lyrics can inspire me. How watching the latest shows on tv (glee, vampire diaries – shows I never would have watched once upon a time, and would have been my loss) inspire me.
Thinking of all this is overwhelming – a writer needs to live, keep au courant, and keep our blogs and/or websites up and running (my website is months and months out of date! And did you notice I still have a winter photo as a header?!?!?!), and still find time to write? It is a catch twenty-two with me (does anyone know the origin of this bizarre expression??) because all of this alone is a full-time job leaving me bursting with the desire to write and I wonder…………….when??
I know that, at least for myself, this process is cyclical. There is a moment of connecting, when everything has the potential to be a story. The kitchen moth that I reach in to catch fluttering behind the hanging bath towels, the juice from the lemon dripping in the bowl. Everything. And this happens until one story takes over, (kind of like a weed I suppose), squashing all other thoughts and ideas and needs to be written. Then I withdraw, enter into my story, and live there for a while, leaving all else where it is for me to come back to once the story is told.
For now, as my own writing works itself to another place, I need to write shorts. It is what I do when I question my process of writing, and my hand fumbles on the keyboard while my thoughts are without direction, until I find my footing again, and see I have moved up the mountain just a tiny bit more. When I used to practice martial arts I experienced a similar process when I was learning – one step back, for each one forward (aren’t I full of clichés again today!).
This post is full of the words myself and connect – I felt myself (lol) writing them over and over, but did not stop to bother to find a better of saying things (laziness that I allow myself right now with the new baby – he’s sleeping, and I have to bounce off the couch to get the kids to the pool for their lessons. This laziness has extended through my whole body and I do not see how I can do this! lol) All that daily life stuff aside (or not!) have you noticed a trend in your process of writing and learning and connecting – and how important is this process to you?
And please forgive this lengthy post! Thanks for reading!