Time to get cracking, and get my schedule nailed!
So many of you have talked about schedule, and I am sorry to do it again, but it is were I am at!
Soon, (precisely next Wednesday morning) I will begin to have some consistent (please, oh please!) writing time when my youngest daughter goes to preschool 5 days a week for 2 hours and 15 minutes. It may not seem like much to you, but I am terribly excited about these hours! I can write! As my neighbor so gallantly pointed out to me, that is 10 hours a week! (Minus all the PED days and sick days and etc, etc, but for now I will ignore those.)
Last night my husband asked me how my blog is. I turned red, and had to tell him I’d been neglecting it. He looked at me as though I were one of the children, and asked me why. How can I write about writing when I am not writing, I asked him. He stared at me, and I knew the look our six year gets when he doesn’t clear the table, and then he shrugged, and walked away.
Ok, I asked myself, what did that shrug mean? Who knows, but I found my own meaning in it. Yes, I haven’t been writing, and I had to asked myself why. No time, was my answer. I no longer have my sitter (she began working full time as a teacher the second week of August after a fantastic summer with us!) and my husband has been busy, and my mother is still full time at the hospital with my grandfather and and and. We all have reasons why we could not write. Yet, I realized that the truth was much simpler. My resolve had faded.
Suddenly, I was awake again! Amazing! How funny it is that we get stuck in situations without realizing it. The catalyst for my lag was my back. But, that has been much better for some time now. Writing went to the back burner and accepted its place. How dare it! I thought it knew it was much more important that that! In fact, it is essential!
So this weekend will certainly be a weekend full of labour! Are you supposed to rake a vacation from labour on Labour Day weekend?
In my post back to the future, I had a list of projects waiting for me. In order to utilize those small hours I have to be organized. I mean, uber organized! (please forgive my use of this horrible word! At the moment, I cannot think of a better one. Was it you owl and sparrow??) This goes against my grain, as I think some of you may know. The only time I have ever followed a schedule was when I was in the lab and was running experiments. So, why this change that has been coming all summer? I want to get things done. Point finale.