I have been asking myself whether I want to write or whether I want to play? Do I want to be a writer, or do I write as a hobby?
In the last year or so one of the things that myself and those around me have been trying to ingrain in me is that I am writer. My cousin, a successful business coach has been lecturing me that if I decide to be a writer, then I must say I am writer. Of course, the problem was (and still is) that I do not think I deserve this title. But when asked, I swallow hard, and lay claim to being a writer.
“You have been published, you won an award, what more do you want?” she asked me some time ago, and these words still haunt me.
What do I want? I want novels, books, award-winners, best-sellers….or do I?
I do not want to be an artist who writes when she feels like it, or when it is convenient. The thing is, I realized, that for me to feel like a writer I need dedication, which I have, but I need to apply that dedication. Meaning, I need to sit and write a certain amount of time per day, even if my production is low. At least my mind is in writing. Perhaps by immersing myself more in my work I will eventually feel like a writer.
I ask you, what makes a writer a writer?