The need to write.

I had a great weekend. Perfect weather, lots of family and fun. The source of this post is: through all this all I wanted to do is write. I finally had the opportunity to sit down for a little while last night and write, and now I feel satisfied. I am once again realizing how the more I write, the more I need to write.

I also happened to have finished reading The Gargoyle, by Andrew Davidson this weekend. Anyone read it?

the gargoyle

It is an excellent novel, that made a spectacular entrance into the world. I do not recommend it for the faint of heart, and if you wonder why you bothered, wait until you hit the 100-page mark before quitting – you won’t regret it!

Of course, one of the novel’s main characters is a maniacal artist (possibly bi-polar, or manic depressant), just adding to my line of thinking for the weekend! The artist in this particular book is a sculptress, who has such strong desires to create that she completely neglects herself and those around her. The narrator of the book makes a reference to how many artists do happen to be maniacal in some form or another, and it is this mania that drives them to create. It is the oldest of cliches.

I cannot imagine such extremes, but I do know that there are times when the need to sit down and write is primary, and it is a battle to keep my head anywhere but in my book. I question mania as a driving factor – I think perhaps it is only fuel.

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16 thoughts on “The need to write.

  1. Ah, the fine line between ‘genius’ and ‘insanity’, now referred to clinically as bipolar. I have a theory called “Infused Dualism”. Whether you are discussing Creationism or The Big Bang, the concept is that all elements existed together (black/white, good/evil, left/right, male/female) until such time as the Human Being came along. But deep within that being are the extremes of all elements. Therefore, men being in touch with their female side makes as much sense as ambidextrous individuals or humane people who feel a rash of anger.
    I beleive it is the Artist (the Writer, the Painter, what have you) that is more accutely aware of this principle and feels the pangs of “both sides” more intently than others.

    • I find so, especially since writing makes one so empathetic (as you already mentioned once). Or is it the other way around, does one have to be empathetic to be a writer?

  2. Once again you bring up some awesome points, some days I want to write and the need is there and some days, it’s not so great. But there is for me always a need to write.

    I’ll be checking out this book for sure.

    • Hi Rebecca, thanks for popping over! It’s an awesome book – but, some parts are graphic at the beginning. The narrator is a porn star/addict/coke addict, who suffers severe burn trauma, and it’s all very descriptive. Suddenly, the whole story turns and we’re led into romance and history, and it becomes very fun. I also think part of the uniqueness of this novel is the complete lack of bashfulness the writer has. Never read anything quite like it.

  3. This need to write is a hard one, I think. Why does it make me feel satisfied in a way that friends and family cannot? I’ve been working on a post on this myself, not being able to get it just right yet. And I’ve deleted what I’ve written here three times now. Is it a question of balance? Is it the need to carve the words in the tree? Maybe both of these, but for sure it’s a way to get the inside out. And then to be able to work on it until it’s just exactly what we mean to say–without someone drumming their fingers on the table while we start again and again.

    • Ok Cynthia, now you have gone and made me all self-conscious! All my posts are done on the fly.

      “the need to get the inside out”. I like that. The need to express.

      • No need to feel self-conscious. I write most of my posts and then just put them up. But with some, like the one I’m referring to, I just can’t figure out what I’m trying to say. So I let them sit until I can sneak up on them and put the words together in a way that makes sense.

  4. oh, my!
    i became so bad about my writing a couple months ago that my guy sat me down and basically gave me a long lecture. i was neglecting everything, it seemed. i only took care of the basic things that i had to. it was ridiculous!
    i’m way better now and the house and other responsibilities are higher on my priority list, but this means less writing.
    i’m so obsessive about it, it’s almost all or nothing for me. it’s not reallyreally bad; not complete neglect…but still..
    even now, i waited until everyone else is asleep so i could come out in the living room and sit with my notebook and check out blogs and attempt to write. late at night is about the only time i get anything done for me—as far as my writing.
    so frustrating.. grrr….

  5. I know what you mean Eden about it becoming obsessive. And it can be hard for those around us to wonder why we have this need to go disappear into our laptops for a little while. Nighttime seems to be my on time as well, but I am trying to change my internal clock. I’m just too exhausted the next day! (I’ve been thinking about getting up at 6 to write – silly me – I am not a morning person – at all. lol)

    • j —
      oh heck! neither am i. mornings are the worst for me.
      i’m working on my clock, as well. it’s actually sort of working. sort of. 😉

      oh—and just like you and cynthia, i just post whatever comes to mind. it amazes me that i’ve actually found readers as i don’t ever even know what it is i’ve written…

      there’s no need for you to feel self-conscious in the least!! i love reading what you write =) whether it be your blogs or comments. it’s all great!!
      -e*

      • Thanks Eden! Same right back to you! I feel the same way…

        Ok. So we’re both working on breaking our pre-baby habits. I’ve been foolishly hanging on to mine.

    • Thanks for stopping in Sharon. I do recommend it! But, be prepared – it is off the wall! Yet, worth the read even if just for the excellent writing technique. Although, I totally got into the characters and plot.

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