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Back of every creation, supporting it like an arch, is faith. Enthusiasm is nothing: it comes and goes. But if one believes, then miracles occur. Henry Miller

Attitude check please

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We are all writers (well most of us anyway) here, so I can be perfectly candid when I speak of the love/hate relationship that seems to come with the creative territory.

Those exhilarating moments when we just know–know–that we are doing what we were meant to be doing. When we sit, and are overtaken, and the story pours forth. Those moments when we are high, soaring, and nothing can pull us down.

And bam–we fall. And it hurts. And we want to go and hide in the dark and rip our manuscript into shreds after taking a big fat sharpy and blackening out every horrible word. And then, slowly, we begin to rub our behind, and think, okay, I can do this. Why am I being so hard on myself? There’s always a solution, a way out. I can fix my manuscript, I can make it work.

So, folks, I’m crawling out of my deep dark hole, and as I was mixing my granola–yes, I homemake it, there’s almost nothing that pleases me more than the scent of cinnamon, oats, and vanilla–a sure way to tantalize me out of hibernation, I realized that one of the things I like most about writing is the fact that the learning never ends. That I can be an eternal student. I will never ever get bored, because there will always be something more.

Yes, I’m having to replot a large portion of my manuscript–which is the event that send me hiding in my deep dark hole–but I see the problem. Now I will find a solution.

I have learned.

And this, my creative friends, is nothing to wallow in self-pity about.

 

 

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10 thoughts on “Attitude check please

  1. It’s possible to escape the hole? Just kidding. I completely understand your sentiments.

  2. Been there, done that and will probably do it again!

  3. For me, this seems a principle of being human. In writing, in my triathlon training, in relationship, it seems there is a soaring and crashing to earth; a picking oneself up and getting a running start on soaring again. Through it all, I am learning a faith in the process, realizing that no matter how I soar or crash, it will change. I doubt I would cherish the soaring if not for the falls.

  4. I’m so relieved to hear you say that Jen, at least I’m not the only one who feels that way.
    The writing process really is like a rollercoaster ride isn’t it?
    I’m happy for you, understanding and seeing the problem is one major step to solving it. Good luck! :)

    • Hi Nisha, I think all writers feel this way at some point or another. Some more than less. It sucks, but I guess it’s all part of the process. It’ll be great if I ever get to tackle the problems I see-we’ve been sick for weeks are still not well-agh, these viruses! They like us way to much!!! Hope you’re writing is going well! :)

  5. Have definitely been there. Even with the novel that is about to be published. I gave it up as a lost cause for awhile. I guess the lesson for us is to keep working at it and eventually we’ll get there. : )

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